Literature
numb
I wish I could feel,
the numbness that I have felt,
so foreign,
so empty.
I wish things were different,
that we talked,
that the obvious never happened.
I wish i never fell so far,
that waiting was worth it,
but,
alas you never knew me,
you never took interest,
you found me safe,
that was good enough.
That was never good enough,
not for me,
i knew everything I could about you.
You still lie,
you still cause me pain,
I still hate myself
a little more every day.
I feel numb.
Nothing exists inside,
no feeling,
no hope,
only empty.
I’m complicated,
I’m strong,
but i made myself weak,
in the belief that it was worth it.
I am num